Saturday night I went to the Banquet of Tables at Cavalry Baptist Church. This is such an awesome annual event. I really look forward to it every year. The women of the church come together and decorate tables all in different themes, then there is a dinner and they always have an awesome speaker come. This year they had Tammy Trent, she is a speaker, artist, and song writer. She is so inspirational with her testimony, She tells how she lost her husband, the love of her life, unexpectedly on a mission trip out of the country the day before 9/11. She was stuck out of the country, alone, no one could fly to her, and just lost the most important person in her life. She talks about how God was there for her in the most unexpected way...a housekeeper at the hotel she was staying at.
It was just such an awesome reminder that God is in control of everything, EVERYTHING in our lives. No matter how small or how big, He is there and in control. I think, me personally, I get caught up in the whos and wheres of life and forget that this life is not the most important thing. No matter what happens here, there is something so much more awesome waiting for me.
It was also a reminder, as Tammy said it herself, that all the crazy things I have been through in life, that is my testimony. I experienced all of those things, even my "Are you there God?" moments, for a reason. Even though some of those things, I don't talk about and most people in my life don't even know about them, He does and even though I don't know what the reason is that I had to experience them, He does. It will be in His time that the reason will come out, and He will be glorified in the end. It is hard to trust in Him sometimes when you are experiencing those "Are you there God?" moments, but one thing I learned a long time ago was it is OK to be angry with God, as long as you know that He loves you, He is still in control, and you come back to him. He is very much like our "earthly" parents in that sense. You aren't always happy with them, but you always love them and know that they are only looking out for what is best for you. He is the same. It may be a long bumpy road, but at the end of that road, there are wonderful things to be seen. You just have to enjoy the ride getting there as much as possible and let Him do the driving.