November 28, 2010

I married a mini Clark Griswald

Thanksgiving is over and we only have 27 days until Christmas! I am truly amazed at how fast this year has gone by. Everyone always tells you that pregnancies go so fast and babies grow so fast, but honestly there is no describing where time goes. I look at my precious little man and I really makes me want to cry when I think he will be FOUR months on Thursday! Four Months!! I want to hold him all day and never put him down. He will never be this small again and I don't want to miss a second of it. It is sad, really. I am here all day with him and when we go out to see family or friends, they of course want to see him, and I too, want them to see him, but a small crazy part of me gets jealous when someone else is holding him. How crazy is that? I mean seriously, I am with him ALL day and I should be so excited that I am getting a break, and really most of me is, but a sad little part of me misses every second that I am not holding him. Sometimes at night when he is asleep I miss him too. He is in his room, and I can watch him sleep but I miss him because I can't hold him. I know I sound like a crazy weirdo mom, and I don't want to but I am just being honest. I love this little guy so much, more than words can describe and he is just growing so fast, it hurts!

I am so excited about his first Christmas! He will have absolutely no idea what is going on, but I am excited. It is bringing the essence of childhood Christmas back into our lives!! I LOVED thinking about Santa when I little. I would make a "days till Christmas" countdown calendar with notebook paper and couldn't wait until the morning to tear the next day off (Luckily for Noah my mother-in-law got this for us, so he won't have to do that)

But Allen and I are both so excited about doing Santa with him! I married a mini Clark Griswald, so this is Allen's favorite time of the year, we have old school C-9 lights up outside, wreaths on all of the windows, candles (with awesome flickering light bulbs) in the windows, and about 1200 lights on the Christmas tree inside, and I Love all of it!! :)

I just truly feel very blessed this year and I am so very thankful for everyone and everything in my life!

Especially my husband and this precious little blessing!!

November 26, 2010

My, My how life has changed...

Exactly one year, 50 lbs gained, 30 lbs lost, 20 lbs to go, one small section of stretch marks, and a baby later, I am loving my life.
We found out a year ago today that we were expecting! It was such an exciting day, it was the first year that I got up early to go shopping for the infamous Black Friday deals. (I say getting up, when in Black Friday terms that would mean leaving at like 3 AM, I think I got up at like 7...amateur, I know, but we got all the things we were looking for AND I got to sleep in four extra hours AND didn't have to fight the crazies so HAH!) I got up before my alarm because I had planned to take the test that morning, test taken and waiting anxiously for the results I tried to get ready for the day... minutes pass and the test reads "YES" (I got the digital one, no screwing around with lines and plus signs for me!) I literally jump up and down in the bathroom. Allen is still asleep because he is not going with us this early, he will join us later in the morning. So I go shopping with Allen's parents, sister, and cousin for the majority of the day, we stop and get some lunch/breakfast (I really can't remember even what time it was at this point, and yes I know there is a term for lunch/breakfast but I am not a fan of using Brunch in my daily language... it sounds so "proper" and very much NOT me. Also for those of you that know me, I do not eat breakfast after about 11 or 11:30 in the morning so this term does not apply to me) Then we go home, this is the first time all day Allen and I have been alone. I am sooo excited to tell him our wonderful news. I had prepared for this day and had already bought him a book called I Love My Daddy to give to him. So I casually say, I bought something for you! And he is thinking that I bought something for him while we were out shopping earlier, I hand him the book and he stares at it...No reaction...No words....No nothing. (NOT what I was expecting) and he finally says..."Thank you..." He is so confused... Finally I have to tell him that I took a test that morning and it was positive. His face lights up and he gives me a hug, and then he realizes what the book was suppose to mean... He asked why I hadn't told him earlier in the day, and I told him because I wanted to give him the book to tell him. He was slightly confused but very excited and it was so cool that we had this precious little secret that no one else knew, just the two of us for a little while!
Moral of the story... The way you plan things in your head when trying to surprise a man, is generally NOT how it will play out in real life...

(I will post some pics later, we are off to eat some NON turkey dinner!) <3

November 15, 2010

Are You there God?

Saturday night I went to the Banquet of Tables at Cavalry Baptist Church. This is such an awesome annual event. I really look forward to it every year. The women of the church come together and decorate tables all in different themes, then there is a dinner and they always have an awesome speaker come. This year they had Tammy Trent, she is a speaker, artist, and song writer. She is so inspirational with her testimony, She tells how she lost her husband, the love of her life, unexpectedly on a mission trip out of the country the day before 9/11. She was stuck out of the country, alone, no one could fly to her, and just lost the most important person in her life. She talks about how God was there for her in the most unexpected way...a housekeeper at the hotel she was staying at.
It was just such an awesome reminder that God is in control of everything, EVERYTHING in our lives. No matter how small or how big, He is there and in control. I think, me personally, I get caught up in the whos and wheres of life and forget that this life is not the most important thing. No matter what happens here, there is something so much more awesome waiting for me.
It was also a reminder, as Tammy said it herself, that all the crazy things I have been through in life, that is my testimony. I experienced all of those things, even my "Are you there God?" moments, for a reason. Even though some of those things, I don't talk about and most people in my life don't even know about them, He does and even though I don't know what the reason is that I had to experience them, He does. It will be in His time that the reason will come out, and He will be glorified in the end. It is hard to trust in Him sometimes when you are experiencing those "Are you there God?" moments, but one thing I learned a long time ago was it is OK to be angry with God, as long as you know that He loves you, He is still in control, and you come back to him. He is very much like our "earthly" parents in that sense. You aren't always happy with them, but you always love them and know that they are only looking out for what is best for you. He is the same. It may be a long bumpy road, but at the end of that road, there are wonderful things to be seen. You just have to enjoy the ride getting there as much as possible and let Him do the driving.

November 11, 2010

My Doctor's visit

First I will take a moment to thank all the veterans for their services to this country.

So yesterday I had to go to my annual "Well Woman" exam. I don't think there is a single woman in the world that enjoys this visit but it must be done for your health. That is definitely a visit I don't think anyone should miss. I mean think about it, the insurance companies, who don't pay for anything and seem to find a reason to not cover about half of the things in the medical world, cover these visits 100%, this should be proof enough on how important these are.  OK I will step down from my soap box...
Anyways, after sitting in the waiting room for about half an hour I finally get called back (don't worry all, I am not going into details of my appt.) So I go back get weighed, (uugghh, I think dr's should give new moms a pass on getting weighed for at least 9 months, I mean come on!!) get my blood pressure taken and then the nurse starts going over the information sheet that she has to fill out for the Dr. So she asks the typical questions and then she gets to "Are you sexually active?" Now granted she did pretty much answer the question herself but she gave me a half glance I guess to make sure something hadn't changed in my life. But since she looked at me I had to answer her question. I'm thinking "OK, I have been married for 3 and half years, I just had a baby three months ago so OBVIOUSLY", but I didn't I just shook my head. Even as I was shaking my head though the 15 year old girl inside me was screaming (in your best valley girl/whiny voice you can think of) "OMG!!! NOOO-AAA!!!Who does she think I am?!? Some kind of trashy floozy!"
Again, I am about to be 26 years old and am a married woman and still the little girl inside me comes out when the words "sexually active" come into play! I wish there was a less invasive way to ask that question. I mean come on people, we are in 2010. I guess it is mainly because I am a very modest person and do not enjoy that topic of conversation with others but still, our feelings should be considered too!!
 But my visit is over, all is well and I got through my unwarranted embarrassing moment for the day.

November 6, 2010

Update on the roast...

For those of you wondering...You can mess up a roast in a crock pot! It was edible but very much on the dry side. It definitely needed some more gravy. When it came to keeping leftovers when I asked Allen if he wanted to keep them he scrunched up his nose and shook his head :(   Sad day.... 

November 5, 2010

Suzy Homemaker

As most of you know I am getting to live the dream of many and be a stay at home mom. Thank you Lord for providing for us and thank you Allen for being the man that you are and for wanting this for your family.

I feel like I am doing well on the "mom" part but since I am home all day I feel like I should be on top of the cleaning and cooking too. Well let me just say now that I am by no stretch of the imagination, a Betty Crocker or Julia Childs in the kitchen. In fact unless the food had directions and not too many ingredients I am not going to be cooking it. Now I can of course cook the easy stuff...tacos, spaghetti, rice...but I am a novice in most of the other things in the Kitchen. I just recently learned how to pan fry things and how to sear chicken. My mom actually loves to tell the story that the day I started my first job at a sandwich/pizza place I put a toaster strudel in the toaster and it caught on fire, literally. This wasn't my fault though because the filling seeped out of the sides and landed on one of the heating coils, so again NOT MY FAULT, but it is a true story.

So today, I am making my first pot roast! I browned it before putting in the crock pot and everything. Look at me go! It still has about 4 hours left and then I will tell you how it tastes, but seriously can you really screw up a pot roast in a crock pot? Well I will let you know!! But I get so proud when I home make edible meals for us to eat. My mom and grandmother are both pretty good cooks and have tried on numerous occasions to teach me but I passed on all of them. (Stupid teenage brain, I did the same thing when Grandma tried to teach me how to sew and now look at me, I am wishing I knew how to) So even though I have to steal recipes from online and other people I know, I have managed to feed us over the past few weeks. I have made Beef Stroganoff, (Ok so that may not be spelled right but all spell check will give me is 'strongman, stronghold, strongroom' You know you have really jacked up the spelling when even spell check can't figure out what you are trying to say) I found an awesome recipe for Chicken Fried Rice and there have been a few other attempts but I don't feel like they were very good but the point is I am trying and that counts for something right? I am attempting to do my part by cooking at home and all we have to pray for is that I don't give us food poising in the process...

(I let you know how the roast is!! :)

November 3, 2010

My Fears

I thought I would share with you a few of my fears in life... I can honestly say I don't know where this urge to divulge this information really came from but here it is...

OK, so I will be 26 years old in two months and I am still scared of the dark. I am also very frightened of being alone at night. Something about the sun being down and the possibility of all of those creepo boogy men out there...oh man it really creeps me out!!

I also am very afraid of being somewhere I am not familiar with and having to use the bathroom (Just number one...don't get gross on me here) and once I am ready to flush, the toilet be broken.

I currently, thanks to all of the daytime TV I now watch, am scared of getting bed bugs!

I am deathly afraid of any type of bug that stings! I can barely even kill them because I feel like they are going to send their fellow bug friends to come after me.

From going to a safety class when I used to work at the bank, I am scared of being out in town in broad daylight by myself.. Thanks M'boro Police Dept.

I worry about running out of gas, I really do get on the verge of having a panic attack once that yellow gas tank starts to flash at me.

I am scared of gaining an excess amount of weight. However when Allen and I were dating, he told me that he would love me even if I got as big as a house... I wonder if he remembers that statement....

The sad part of all of this is most of these fears come from the TV and stories I have heard...I guess the moral of this would be, Don't tell me your crazy stories that have a fearful ending and I should stop watching TV. But seeing as how I don't see that happening anytime soon, I guess I will have to live with these fears and hope all of my wonderful friends will support me in my madness.

So after my "tub" post, the next time I gave him a bath I had the camera ready! And I made sure no compromising photos were taken. He is just so stinking cute! Even when he is not smiling!